Because you can never go back

Those flirtatious stares I’ll never forget
They will haunt me till my last breath;
Those lingering goodbyes I’ll always regret
They will always remind me of things I should have said.

The messages I never sent, will always wait
In the drafts folder, for that moment of courage;
The kisses on forehead, will never translate
Into something more, for I am not that brave. images

The conversation in my head, will never materialize
The feelings I have, will stay there for a while
I’ll not initiate the conversation, until the moment is right
I’ll not make a hasty decision and spoil our lives.

Call me a coward or call me a fool
But I won’t cross this line;
Until I am absolutely sure
Of your feelings and of mine.

Because I don’t want to risk this
Whatever it is that we have;
Because I don’t care about the norms of the world
That tells me to do this and do that.

I will only confess my feelings
When I am absolutely sure of it;
I will only commit to things
When I am ready to risk everything.

Until then I will gulp down these feelings
And take a step back
Pretend that I don’t want you
And behave as if I lack

Emotions those are
Unbearably painful
Because well, my love,
You can never go back.

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Guilt

Feeling-Guilty

For my silence
That cost you
Your home, your life

For my prejudices
That robbed you
Of respect and a fair fight

For my inactions
And my cowardliness
For my excuses
And my shamelessness

I deeply and sincerely
With all my heart apologize
For my inactions had consequences
I never realized.

I’m not making excuses
There is nothing I can say that’ll suffice
But I still wanted to say sorry
To let you know that I now empathize.

Everyone makes mistakes, they said
That’s how you learn;
But some mistakes let me tell you
Are not worth the lesson learnt

Some mistakes turn into guilt
They are like scars on your heart
They constantly remind you of your mistake
Until the mistake becomes your life’s part

Nothing that I say or do
Can make things alright
Nothing I say or do
Can bring back your life

So, in my feeble attempt to cure my guilt
As a small consolation, that it was not all in vain
On my life, I promise you this
I’ll never make the same mistake again.

love is art

Love is art and knowing and understanding and being able to make art is how you’ll know love!
A beautiful piece of writing!

tempted? then take a bite | thoughts from the kaur

I love art. My mom tells me that I have loved art from a very young age. Since I began school. Junior kindergarten to be precise. “You loved making art. You would paint, cut construction paper into different shapes and sizes, colour pieces of macaroni and glue it all together; bring it home and display it on the refrigerator door” she recalls. She remembers everything that I made as a child. Mother’s day cards, bouquet of flowers made from pink and red tissue paper with twisted green pipe cleaner stems, hand painted vases made from using empty glass apple juice bottles, paper mache bowls using blown up balloons and a bird house made from gluing pieces of wood together. I vividly remember arts and crafts time in school. It was my favourite subject that unfortunately was only offered to us once a week while math and English was an unjust…

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तुम बस

तुम बस एक कदम आगे तो लो, बाकी का रास्ता हम तय कर लेंगे
तुम बस नज़रे उठा के देख तो लो, आँखों ही आँखों में बातें हम कर लेंगे
तुम बस एक बार इशारा तो करो, बिन कहे सारी बातें हम समझ जायेंगे
तुम बस प्यार का इज़हार तो करो, इस दुनिया से तो हम अकेले ही लड़ जायेंगे.

तुम बस मांग के तो देखो, आसमां से तारे भी हम तोड़ लायेंगे
तुम बस एक बार चाह के तो देखो, हर चाहत को तुम्हारी हम पूरा कर दिखाएँगे
तुम बस आरज़ू बयां तो करो, सारी जन्नतें तुम्हारे कदमो में ला गिराएंगे
तुम बस प्यार कर के तो देखो, प्यार कि सारी कस्मे हम निभाएंगे.

तुम अरमान बयां तो करो, उन्हें पूरा करने का ज़िम्मा हम उठाएंगे
तुम कभी आज़मा के तो देखो, दुनिया कि सारी हद्दे हम पार कर जायेंगे
तुम कभी भरोसा कर के तो देखो, हम इस भरोसे के लिए जान भी दे जायेंगे
तुम हमपे प्यार का दाव लगा के तो देखो, तुम्हे ज़िन्दगी कि बाज़ी हम जीतवाएंगे.

तुम एक बार हाथ थाम लो, ज़िन्दगी भर का साथ हम निभाएंगे
तुम कभी अपना ग़म बाट के देखो, उसे दूर नहीं तो कम हम कर दिखाएँगे
तुम अपनी खुशियों में शामिल तो करो, उन्हें दुगना हम कर दिखाएँगे
तुम बस हम से प्यार करो, हम इसी एहसास की बदौलत ख़ुशी से मर जायेंगे.